Hand in Hand

Laying underneath the stars,
On a warm silent night
Your arms wrapped around me
& everything feels right.

You kiss me sweet and softly,
I feel your warm gentle touch
You help me feel protected
Under the sweet night sky rush.

My world before me is perfect,
There is nowhere else I want to be
Except laying underneath the stars
Hand in hand, You & Me.

Just when everything is perfect
And you seem to delicately sweet,
A rush of wind comes past me
As I am swept beneath my feet.

Nothing could be more right,
There is nowhere else I want to be,
Let us take a walk my only love
Hand in Hand, You & Me.

I wish you could understand my Silence..

You don't know how bad I need you here with me,

I need you more than anything more than I need to breathe.

How do I last now that my heart has grown so cold,

Being without you its like my heart was put on hold.

How do I stay warm without you to hold me tight,

I wish I was in your arms and everything was right.

When I'm with you my body becomes weak,

I want to say I love you but its really hard to speak.

I get this amazing feeling from my head down to my toes,

I cant explain it I'm like the only one who knows.

I wish I could tell you exactly how I feel,

But words cant explain it this feelings just to real.

I'll start off with,

I miss how your voice sounds to me,

I miss the feeling of you laughing in my arms,

I miss that smile you had.

I feel so many things that it's hard to describe

Sometimes it makes me stutter over my words

I miss the way you areI miss everything you say,

everything you do makes me smile and laugh.

I miss holding you in my arms,

I miss being stupid with you.

I miss listening to music with you whether I like it or not whether you like it or not .

I miss you so much and I cant wait to see your face,

Cuz when were together my heart begins to race.

I miss our walkings

I miss holding your hand until i fell asleep

When I'm with you it’s like no one can get in my way,

Even when were apart I think about you all day.

I wish you could understand my silence
It simply says - I miss being with you

& I miss everything about us!!

My Thoughts of you !!

How can you love someone

you have never seen,

with a feeling so passionate that it makes ur heart

skip a beat at the sound of his voice ??

How can you feel his hands on you

when he has never touched you?

How can you feel his lips kiss yours

when he has never whispered your name in the night??

A love with such passion

that life could have never known.

It in your wildest dreams or

if it could ever be possible would you turn it away in fear

that it could not be real for you had never known such a love?

For this love i would take the chance of heartbreak.

for I have known a lifetime of heartbreak

& heartbreak in itself is of a temporary nature if we allow it to be .

But to know just one moment in my life with

such passion, such feeling,such want, such need,

I wiyld give myself entirely

without regret,without sorrow,without remorse to you

your wants , your needs,

your love, your life .

To deny such a love would be the most fatal of mistakes

to deny myself your love would be an injustice within itself to the name of love.

To have a love based on a spiritual

not physical beginning,

could only result in the most special of loves.

The love you wait a lifetime for

and a love so strong that heaven nor earth could stop it from being.

A love for you and I

A love for Eternity.

Reality of Life...

Life isn’t just full of happiness,

It’s sunsets,it’s love, it’s tears.

It’s the thoughts of yesterday’s memories,

That can wash away all out fears.

It’s that very painful experience,

That each one of us has had.

It’s the laughter that fills the air,

It’s the tears when you are sad.

It’s loving that someone special,

That at one time made you smile.

It’s the pain of losing that person,

But the memories that make it worthwhile.

It’s the child in every one of us,

Although in time we’ll all be old.

It’s the good times we’ll never forget,

It’s the memories we’ll always hold.

It’s the hug that we all need,

When we’d rather drown in our sorrow.

It’s the hope in every one of us.

That makes us hold on for tomorrow !!!

Have I Ever .... ??

Have I ever told you
that if I sit really still and silent,
sometimes. I like to think
I can hear your heart beating
in time with mine?

Have I ever told you
that when I watch you speak to me
through lines and cords,
and bytes and ram,
I imagine
your voice,
whispering into my ear?

Have I ever told you
that I wait out each day
in anticipation,
wanting
only an hour or two,
just a second in space and time,
to feel close to you?

Have I ever told you
that there has been times,
when I ached for you,
ached for you so badly,
that the emotions overwhelmed me..
and so I sat and cried?

Have I ever told you
that sometimes,
I will reach out,
touching your name
on this cold screen before me,
wishing
I could reach in
and pull you to me?

Have I ever told you
that after the first time I heard
the sound of your voice,
thousands of miles away,
I sat up all night,
turning the conversation over and over
in my mind,
examining it,
like some newly discovered species of flower?

Have I ever told you
that I would give everything up,
just for one night
to be able to lay near you,
to feel your chest rise and fall
with each breath you take,
just to know that you are real?

Have I ever told you
that I dream of you often,
I dream of you reaching out
and touching my hand,
simply to let me know
that you are there,
and everything is okay?

Have I ever told you,
have I still yet to tell you . . .
that I love you?

If i could.....

I would tell you today

That you are the one that fills my life

Whose smile I cannot wait to see

Whose arms I long to have wrapped around me

Whose lips I live to kiss Softly, passionately, in every way.

I would want you to know

That you make my heart skip a beat

You fill my soul with contentment

You brighten my dark skies

You fill my days and nights With stars, hopes, and cascading dreams.

I would want you to see How beautiful the world looks with your eyes through mine

Your eyes light up the sky

Your touch paints the Heavens

Your kiss creates amazing rainbows Of beauty, sunshine, and life.

I would want you to understand That I have always loved you

Before I knew there was you

Before our eyes ever met

Before I found in you Happiness, completeness, and passion.

If there were no tomorrow I would tell you

That you are the greatest gift in my life

Whose love I cherish above all else

You sustain me with Your laughter, love, and friendship

Before there was no knowing I'd tell you I love you infinitely,

without boundaries,

and beyond time I love you !!.

Something I Got Off The Internet.......

He came into my life unexpectedly. Sorta like a movie, you know, the kind that leaves you with little tears about to fall from your eyes. A huge lump in your throat, and inspiration. A drive that makes you so sure you will find love out there. (Wishful thinking?)

We met on the internet. I can already hear the peanut gallery's snide remarks and deftly dealt blows to my intelligence, my morals, my thoughts. After all, I must be crazy, and he must be an axe murderer right? I must be desperate, after all, to fall in love with a man over the internet. No, none of the above. (You pessimists just have to chalk this one up to a loss!) He is the most caring, compassionate man I have ever met. And I can say that with all honesty, with all truths freely tossed into the lion's den for approval.

At first, I wasn't expecting it to happen. Wasn't looking for it. But I wasn't against it. I was open to it sub-consciously I suppose. Searching for that fairy tale somewhere, my internal thoughts caught up with the rest of science and dove into technology as well. I had heard so much about it happening to real life people like me, from places in the world I had never heard of, but it happened! I had talked to him on and off through way of chat rooms for about a year. In this year, I didn't get to know him really. Except the fact that he seemed like a really nice guy. He intrigued me. Maybe it was this portal into another realm we were both opening up. Making it harder to not talk. It's all you can do, just type out your inner most thoughts, and delight in the very thought of making a 'friend' online.

We started talking, and I wanted to know more about him. I got excited when I saw his name in my e-mail inbox. Even happier I was when replying to him. I was pouring myself out to this stranger, and he was responding. Giving of himself more and more each time he hit Send, as was I.

Our phone conversation was great. I was attracted immediately by his voice. He was feeling the same way about mine. But there had to be more, right? There just has to be! I was thirsting for more information from him. I simply wanted to know everything about this man. We had seen each other's pictures already, sent through the wonderful e-mail services. Our eyes glanced upon each other's pictures and saw a promising something there. We liked each other at this point. Promises to call each other were made, and more e-mails were sent.

Finally, we fell in love. Just like that. Fell. Head over heels. And I can say this, without hesitation, that I fall in love with this man more and more every day. When I hear his voice, BAM, I fall in love again. When I look into his eyes, BAM, I'm in love again. Anything this man does equates to pure, sweetened love for me. Of course, there's a loop hole. Isn't there always? We are long distance. I represent the East Coast, and he the West. Was it possible, is it possible? Yes and yes. We talked endlessly about this. Tip toed around the fact that it would be hard, but took into the account that it wouldn't be easy. Pored over every obstacle that would stand in our way, and would eventually test us and our strength, had we gotten together.

We talked about our wants, our needs, our desires at this time. What we wanted from each other, and how we could go about it. We knew all we wanted was to be together, but could we handle it? Were we ready to take on something so rough? We have. Overcoming the distance, the money issues, the conversation issues, well, it hasn't been easy. But we don't think any relationship is a bed of roses. We take the good, and the bad, and we still love each other.

Through this love we have grown stronger. We have learned from each other. We have taken our relationship beyond the levels of just something we got 'off the internet'.

Meeting was like a dream. I was absolutely on pins and needles. Seeing him though, only reinstated my previous feelings I had felt for him, and made them that much stronger. Love at first sight? Oh, it happened alright. We have shared so many times together. His presence completes me. The lost piece to my puzzle. The one thing that I can hold onto in this world. The one relationship I have ever felt love from. He loves me. Plain and simple. With my flaws and all. He sees the good in me, and I can see it in him. I have found my true connection. Without him, I'd simply be searching for something that couldn't give me what he gives me. It would only be false, and I know this to be of truth, because for once in my life, my heart feels what my head does, and their both in sync. I'm loving every minute of it.

When you hear the proverbial warnings of finding anything reliable on the internet, scoff away the remarks. It can happen, it has happened. When you hear the woes of love tales gone sour, just know that love is alive. It is all around us, and it will find you when you least expect it. And in the last place you would ever think of finding it...